Tomorrow's Memories

This comes a little late, after im finally reconciling that i’ve graduated, season’s over, we lost. 

I don’t think i need to say much about how proud i am of this team, how proud i am to be part of this team. Although in the end i wasn’t in the starting line up, i had my fair share of games as well and we all worked hard to gt this far. Despite the loss, i think we all have no regrets, and that if we were to lose, we wouldn’t have it any other way (:

This post, pardon me, is going to be more focused on the only time I got to play during the finals haha XD Self-centred much.

It was 2 down, top of the 5th, last chance to score. Coach told me to warm up my stick, and after that he made the change. And I was up, all hopes pinned on me(okay it wasn’t that noble, but i was sort of their last hope). I remember feeling good, i didn’t feel pressurised like i normally did during normal at bats. I just felt, this is it, it’s my final at bat of my season, of my JC softball career, i just wanted to enjoy it, i just wanted to do it for mou(secretly i was hoping i could hit a miraculous homerun XD Let’s admit it, anyone would have felt that way) So I stepped into the box, coach signalled me to just give it all i’ve got, enjoy the stage. So It began. First pitch, high and inside, way high. Ball. Second pitch, came inside, near to me again, ball. I can’t remember if it was 3 balls or 2 balls when I hit, but i remember seeing the ball very clearly coming straight in, and i just turned and felt my bat hit the heavy ball. I felt my bat pushed back a little, but the ball went fair. Next thing i knew was breaking off into a full speed run, seeing the ball bounce high towards first base and slightly towards second. In my mind i was going, shit, is it over? Then I remember having a slight hope, telling myself no, it’s not. And then next moment i saw the ball bounce through the legs of the 2nd baseman, and i knew i was safe at 1. I did it. I ended my season on a high note, a pressure situation single. I don’t remember hearing any cheers or anything, my mind went blank, i couldn’t hear any external voices, i just told myself, my next task was to run properly to score. I got my hit. After the game, people then told me how happy they were when I made that last chance hit. I felt really good, because i never knew i could pull through in such a tight situation before. But I did, and it was good (:

I don’t know if i’ll have the chance to continue softball again, because frankly I want to move on to other things as well. And for personal reasons, i don’t really want to join softball in the other Universities. I only have two coaches in my softball life: Coach Marcus Yeo and Mr Ken Toh. It hasn’t been a smooth sailing time with coach, the fault mostly on my part, but i guess i did my job making this year the best year i’ve had with him after all the nonsense since sec 3. I wanted to make it up to him for J1 when i strayed away slightly, and hopefully I’ve done so. I don’t know if he’ll ever read this but I really respect him as my coach, and he’s like a fatherly figure to everyone of us in the team. I don’t think I’ll be willing to change coach, so if i’m not going to join Roadrunners, i might as well end it at that. Of course, i’ll be coming back to help out the juniors, and hopefully they can fulfill what I myself had not been able to (:  

It has been a fruitful and memorable year A Div ‘12. may we always remember the moments we shared, and always keep in touch with each other (:

As we go to sleep tonight,
Recall the friend who sadly died.
Us all who played under the same sun,
Years apart yet united as one.
We gathered to say our last goodbye,
To him who has risen to the sky.
The band played its farewell piece,
With our silent prayers Rest In Peace.
His presence is no longer seen,
But forever felt from deep within.
The burial has now been done
But his name be forgotten by none.
As we go to sleep tonight,
Recall our friend who sadly died.

So a friend told me today that i better find some way to forget her, if not come september i’ll commit suicide.

Well, i don’t think i’ll commit suicide, this is not a reason worth my life. I think this whole episode really taught me how irrational love is. Its really so intangible, something you can’t explain at all. It’s something that fools your mind and gets you all confused, that sometimes you don’t even know who you were anymore. But i guess that’s what makes it so interesting, so beautiful at times. Imagine, if love were like a science, where almost everything is quantifiable, would it still be that amazing? If love were rational, what’d it be like? If it were rational, you’d know when it starts, when it’ll stop as well. Doesn’t that make it, tragic?

Commit suicide, nah.. i’ve alot of things i have yet to complete, i need to fulfill these promises and purposes. I guess im really gonna miss her though. 

As I always have.

You wanna do something dare to live up to it don’t come and eff around when things happen